highest measurments...idk for sure: 37-33-43 ???
lowest: 37-29-41
current: 37-30-42
"I'm not eating food I'm eating fucking numbers and I can't taste anything but shame and guilt and fear"-someone on twitter lol
My 17th birthday is tomorrow and I'e already binged all day today. I'm also going to a greek restauant tomorrow, so I'm gonna have a normal meal. I feel gross, but I've given myself permission to eat. Y'know wats weird?? Even when I give myself permission to stuff my face, I only eat cereal, goldfish, and small chocolates, even when we have other options. I absolutley FORBID myself icecream, cookies, and anything that tastes too sweet. Like, I can't even SOMEWHAT enjoy my binges hah. I ate 200 cals yesterday and am planning to fast/eat a very minimal amount over the weekend so I don't gain. I'm probably gonna eat more tonight, since I'm eating an edible and I'm gonna have the munchies. Whatever, ya got to live a little. Sometimes I feel like I don't even have an ed. I always feel like I'm faking it. Ehhh, who cares about label tho. I still feel tired and shitty almost all the time, no matter what I have. Anyways, gonna indulge in my special cookie. By the way, I had a few edible crumbs in math class today and didn't really feel anything. I was a bit disappointed, but what the hell did I expect. THEY WERE CRUMBS LOL.
What do you mean smoking pot isn't a personality trait??
UPDATE: It's currently 9:00pm, and I am having enjoying creating this site. Honestly, I feel kinda bad about making it tho. I don't want to seem like I'm romanticizing eds by making this all cute and aesthetic. Again, I just need this place for me. I'm sorry if it comes off that way.